Today was one of those 'sian' days. Dunno why I've got this feeling inside me I can't really describe. Like this feeling of emptiness, feeling that something bad may happen, I don't know. My mum was supposed to go back to Indonesia. Usually, I'd feel slightly happy. After all, she goes back equates more freedom for me. But this time, I felt quite strange, I actually didn't want her to go back, like something inside fearing something might happen to her. Dunno why. I'm like scared I'm going to miss her or something. Sounds real weird. Haha. Then, afterwards, during tennis training, we had to do a survey on like all the team members, their attitude etc, to decide who gets into the team. There're currently 13 pple, but only 11 can go into the nationals, so the 2 pple who get the lowest for the survey will most likely not play in the nationals. I had a real bad feeling about this. Turns out I got 3rd lowest score. The person that got the lowest in the whole thing confirmed will not play. But the captain was still deciding on the other person to sort of leave the team. Apparently, the 2nd, 3rd, 4th and 5th lowest (tie for 5th lowest) scores were quite close. So, I'm quite scared. Hopefully, I get into the team, cos I really want to play. Argh!!! Trying my best to be cheerful now. Thought I'd watch last night episode of American Idol that I recorded, but in the end ended up watching Survivor. Why is dat Rob still on the show? The person I like best, Christy, got voted off tonight all cos of dat Rob. Argh!!! Must be happy...