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Sunday, January 30, 2005

Yeah! Safin won! Great match! Anyway, I'm now down with sore throat and flu. Sucks. Oh ya I just set up a Friendster account. I know I'm very slow.. Friendster is like a thing of the past; it's no longer the 'in' thing now. But I've got no choice. My friend back home only uses friendster, she doesn't use msn.

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Saturday, January 29, 2005

BEAUTIFUL SOUL (Jesse McCartney)


I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul


But I'm just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry, c'mon let's try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just want to know that you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I want to chase
You're the one I want to hold
I won't let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

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I've finally decided to change my blog skin. Even though my previous one was quite nice, I've gotten quite sick of looking at it. It's only the archive thing that is a bit problematic. It looks so messy. Anyway, I'm right now crazy over Maroon 5. Well, I've been crazy over them for the past few months haha.

Sigh, my music file is so messy. I conveniently forgot to save all the songs before I reformatted the com the other time. So my brother had to transfer all the songs from his Zen to the com. Even then, the newer songs are still missing. And it doesn't help that when you transfer songs, it creates folders after folders..just so many folders.. based on the artist, album title, song title, etc. We've got 1500+ songs, so there are really a lot of folders.

Anyway, Safin vs Hewitt tomorrow! I want Safin to win, but I have this strange feeling that Hewitt is destined to win.

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Thursday, January 27, 2005

I must say that today has unexpectedly ended on a good note. All because I went to my aunt's house to watch the match between Federer and Safin. I really miss the excitement of watching a tennis match live, and that match was really really really exciting. I was sort of rooting for Safin to win cos both Hewitt and Roddick have a poor record against Federer, so I thought that if Safin wins, it'll be a more interesting final. Anyway, it's weird to see Federer make so many unforced errors; so uncharacteristic of him. Too bad I had to leave early for dinner, but in the end, Safin won. I think I'm going to watch tomorrow's match between Roddick and Hewitt, two of my fave players. And I'm definitely going to watch the men's singles final. Hope my cousin doesn't mind me going there all the time.

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Today has been a bad day. I overslept, was late and didn't tap my ez-link card properly when I got down the bus. To top it off, MU lost to a 'freak' goal. Such trivial things can just make my day so wrong.

I'm still lacking of sleep...

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Monday, January 24, 2005

Went to the airport just now to send my brother off. He'll be in Perth to continue his studies. Sigh... I don't know, my mind is now jumbled up, but I'm feeling quite empty inside. I'm gonna miss him; don't know when I'm going to see him again. We went to the airport rather early, fortunately. Because 5 minutes after we had gone, my maid called and said my brother had left his wallet behind. Thank goodness she called because it was only then that he discovered he had also left his laptop behind. I can't imagine if my maid hadn't called. Then my bro will be in Perth, without a laptop. I think my mum will be extremely extremely furious. That's just like him, always so laid-back and so last-minute. My mum and brother checked in pretty early, so we had a lot of time to spare at the airport. A few of his friends and sunday school classmates (Kimberly, Gilly, Xiao En) were there as well, but then they arrived quite late, so my mum was like kind of rushing him haha. Gilly and Xiao En were like super late (like 15 min before the plane was supposed to take off). By then, my bro had gone in, so I had to call my mum to ask him to come out again haha. When he waved and disappeared from our view, I guess I didn't really realize that I wouldn't be seeing him again in such a long time. Even now, the realisation hasn't really sunk in yet. But soon enough, I'm sure I'm going to miss the times spent talking crap to him, being lame and arguing/insulting about the other's supported soccer teams.

Anyway, I'm definitely going to go to my aunt's house to watch Australian Open. Agassi vs Federer tomorrow, that's one match not to be missed. I keep on telling my mum that it'd be better if we have cable at home, so that I won't always have to go to my aunt's house to watch anything that's on cable, and be of inconvenience to my cousin. But my mum just won't listen.

I've finally gotten myself a diary. Now I can at least write down stuff that I can't possibly blog.

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Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Sigh... and I thought I could be rid of the auto-online thing. I didn't know that when someone connects to the Internet using the computer back home, I'd be automatically online, i.e. when my brother connects to the net back home, I'm online. How wonderful. He can just use and talk to people using my account, like what he did yesterday when he talked to my cousin. It's just so ridiculous that everyone thinks I'm online, even though the com here is switched off. Like yesterday, when someone asked me online if I want to watch Phantom with her, having no idea that she was actually asking my bro, who's all the way in Jakarta.

I think I'm really spending way too much money. It doesn't help that I have to pay adult fare now when I take a bus.

I really should start keeping my promise to sleep earlier. I just don't know why I really don't feel like sleeping before midnight. I think I'm still in the holiday mood, so I'd wait till like 2 to sleep. But now, I have to wake up at like 7. That's only 5 hours of sleep. I'll be ageing in no time.

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Sunday, January 16, 2005

Went to watch the Liverpool-MU match at my aunt's place with my brother and cousin. So happy MU won! My brother and I are both MU fans, whereas my cousin is a Liverpool fan. When Rooney scored, two of us were like screaming in his face haha. But I was so nervous in the last 30 minutes, after Wes Brown got sent off and with so many MU players getting booked. I was so scared MU would be down to 9 men! Haha I'm just happy that MU won. As my brother said, it was "half a good weekend". The other half, of course, will come if Indonesia manage to win the Tiger Cup. Right now, I don't think that's very likely, but my bro is still quite confident. Yesterday, he and a few of his friends were interviewed by CNA for their Tiger Cup report. And they had to say, "Go Lions go" or something to that extent. Obviously, my bro is an Indo fan, but he was still forced to say that haha. During halftime, we accidentally switched to CNA and they just happened to run the report. Saw my brother on TV. He looked so funny, but couldn't see him clearly cos he was standing on the extreme right (on purpose, according to him). Anyway, don't think I will be watching the final. No time and I don't think I can bear to get all worked up and nervous again, after last night. Besides, there is still Apprentice to watch.

Had dinner with my dad before that at somewhere near Serangoon. The belacan fish was nice! I couldn't stop eating all the belacan and yet I'd always thought I couldn't eat spicy food. Maybe now I can stand chilli, after eating quite a few spicy Indonesian food recently.

Went for cell for the first time on Friday. I'd promised myself that I'd go for cell this year. Was quite worried at first cos it was like my first time there and I didn't know so many people. But I think there were quite a few first-timers also. We had extended worship and I found worship really meaningful.

Anyway, I had to reformat my com again yesterday, even though I just reformatted it last week. I don't know why there are so many viruses. Even now, the Internet is not working properly. Will probably have to reformat the com again. Sigh. At least I can get rid of the irritating auto-online thing.

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Monday, January 10, 2005

SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL (Robbie Williams)

You can’t manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful, that day
And love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical, these days
You analyze everyone you meet
But get no sign the loving kind
Every night you admit defeat
And cry yourself blind

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cos your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
And the past that cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful, you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cos your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way


Some kind of beautiful (will come your way)(x4)

All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no no no
Forgot the time feeling petrified
When they lived alone

If you can't wake up in the morning
Cos your bed lies vacant at night
If you're lost, hurt, tired or lonely
Can't control it, try as you might
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way

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Today's been quite a bad day. As much as I don't want to admit it, I think sleeping 5+ hours a day for the past week is the main cause of, well, my bad day.

Anyway, had dinner last night at Marche with Ivana, Anna, Zaneta, Saby and Stella. Ivana just came back from Melbourne+Shanghai, so we thought we'd meet up with her and celebrate her birthday at the same time. I haven't seen her in like 6 months, but I think she still looks the same. Saby looks the most different, almost couldn't recognize her! Even though the turnout was pretty bad (it was supposed to be a class dinner after all), I had so much fun and I really enjoyed myself. It was really nice to catch up with them and talk about almost everything, from future plans to church/Christianity. We laughed a lot of times too, mostly at Zaneta and her quirky smiles/antics/gestures hahaha. Same old Zaneta I guess. She's still the slowest eater among all of us. When we were in MG, I think Zaneta and I were like the slowest eaters and we'd always see who ate slower haha. We took pictures also, and they turned out great! We had chocolate cake cos we were supposed to celebrate Ivana's birthday, with a candle. So we sang the birthday song, once in English and once in Chinese (Stella's idea cos Ivana just came back from China). The waffle we ate with banana and chocolate ice-cream was just so delicious! Ivana treated us for the dinner. We didn't want her to pay for the whole dinner because it would be quite expensive, but she said it's an Indonesian tradition that the birthday person treats others. I didn't know there's such a tradition haha.

After dinner, we went to take neo-prints. The machines were all in Japanese and none of us understood Japanese, so we didn't really know what to do. Had a hilarious time trying to take the neo-prints and decorate them. Didn't help that we were rushing cos the time was so short haha. Afterwards, we went to take more pictures in front of the graffiti thing. By then, it was already like 1030 so we all went home, except for Ivana, who went to meet her friends.

To Ivana: Happy Birthday and take care! Don't know when I can see you again.

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Thursday, January 06, 2005

Went out with the class yesterday for dinner before the guys go to army. We were supposed to have steamboat at Marina, but there was a last-minute change of plans, so we had dinner at nydc, in front of Heeren, instead. Only about 15 turned up I think, and in the end, we were only sending off Eric and Edwin, who're supposed to go in this week. Dinner was fun though; got to catch up with quite a few people, whom I haven't seen in a month I think. I found out that almost everyone who's not going to army anytime soon is actually working and earning money. Just hearing my friends talk about finding a job, pay, CPF account and stuff made me think I'm missing out on something. I want to be able to work too - to be able to learn new things, experience the working world and earn my own money. I feel bad that my friends can actually earn their own money, whereas I still have to depend on my parents for money. But I guess learning Chinese is like going to be a lifelong skill. As my mum put it, maybe I can work in China or other Chinese-speaking countries next time, or have more opportunities.

Anyway, after dinner, we were standing around in front of nydc, waiting for Charlene and Eline to come back. And guess what.. we saw Taufik!!! Yes..the Singapore Idol! I overheard someone behind me talking on the phone, telling the person to go down to nydc because taufik batisah was there. So I turned and looked at the entrance of nydc, and there he was, signing autograph. I couldn't believe it at first. I just stood there, staring at him. Think I was just quite shocked haha. First impression was.. he's so tall! I didn't he know he's so tall! After staring at him for a few moments, I told Sin Hui (who's a hard-core Taufik fan) that Taufik was there and she got super excited. That was when I started getting quite excited too haha. Four of us (Sin Hui, Li Lian and Ade) managed to catch him in time and take a picture with him! Pity I didn't take out my camera fast enough. I felt bad about asking him to take another picture, so I don't have a picture of 5 of us in my cam. He looked quite sian about taking the pix, but at least he obliged and agreed to it. The class guys looked quite amused at our excited faces haha. Even though I only saw Taufik for like about 3 minutes, I'll remember it for a long time. My first time meeting an Idol in person. I think I'd have gone even crazier had I met Sylvester instead haha. Anyway, when I went home, I watched Amazing Race and after the show, they showed the video for I Dream. Watching it, I still couldn't believe that I'd actually met Taufik.

Had lunch with Shuping today after class. She's working nearby, so we thought we could just meet up during her lunch-break. Talked to her about a lot of stuff.. and she also didn't believe that I can drive! Seems like everyone doesn't believe I can drive. I must admit I'm not a good driver, but I think I can now drive safely. Hopefully, haha. I want to watch Australian Open too! Pity I can't go to Melbourne when I've no school now. And I just realized that my mum postponed subscribing to cable. That means I've to go to my aunt's house if I want to watch the Australian Open. And soccer matches also. Argh!

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Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Argh! MU's now 11 pts behind Chelsea. Bad start to my day, even though I know MU's super lucky not to have lost. When is Chelsea ever going to slip?

Anyway, Chinese lessons have so far been quite okay. Quite fun, but I'm getting confused by the day.. the tones..can't seem to remember them. I think I'm the youngest in class; the rest are mostly working already. And there're quite a few Caucasians in class, and some of them have learnt Chinese before. Makes me feel quite embarrassed. I mean, they're so enthusiastic in learning Chinese and some of them probably know more Chinese than me.

Come to think of it, maybe I do have more attachment to Indonesia than here. Like if Taufik meets Ronald Susilo, I'll probably support Taufik (I know both were born in Indonesia, but Susilo's a Singaporean now). Which is why I'm supporting Indonesia in the upcoming Tiger Cup final.

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Monday, January 03, 2005

REMEMBER ME THIS WAY (Jordan Hill)

Every now and then we find a special friend
Who never lets us down
Who understands it all
Reaches out each time you fall
You're the best friend that I've found
I know you can't stay
A part of you will never ever go away
Your heart will stay


I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
If life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And If you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way


I don't need eyes to see
The love you bring to me
No matter where I go
And I know that you'll be there
Forever more a part of me you're everywhere
I'll always care


I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
If life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And if you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way


And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you
I'll be standing by your side in all you do
And I won't ever leave as long as you believe
You just believe...


I'll make a wish for you
And hope it will come true
That life will just be kind
To such a gentle mind
And if you lose your way
Think back on yesterday
Remember me this way
Remember me this way


I watched the video for this song back home. It's quite a sad video; I think I nearly cried watching it. The lyrics are so so meaningful.. I'm just wondering whether this song is the soundtrack for Casper. Cos in the video, I think I saw a cartoon-like ghost that looks like Casper.

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Sunday, January 02, 2005

First post of 2005...

I discovered yesterday that I've put on 2kg over the past week. That's really a lot! So now, I weigh over 50kg. Great...

Anyway, yesterday (new year) was basically spent on going to church, gym (having muscle aches again) and packing. Sigh, so it's goodbye Jakarta again, after only 3 weeks. Just before I left, I practically made a tour round my house and took a good look at a lot of the stuff there, trying to remember them as long as I possibly can. Sounds silly I know haha. Just in case I won't be going back home anytime soon. But it seems that I'll be going back again for Chinese New Year, so I guess it's not such a long time after all.

My mum asked me whether "home sweet home" for me refers to Jakarta or Singapore. I'm not really sure. I spend most of my time in Singapore, but I really miss home. I'd say it refers to both.

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