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Monday, May 31, 2004

Fed Up
I'm so totally fed up with my com. The Internet is so problematic. Like I couldn't check my email or enter any website which requires my password until I changed the security settings. And sometimes, the words on the websites would all of a sudden have links to don't-know-where. It's extremely irritating. And I can't even enter some websites which I normally can. Studying for SAT II sucks too. I just realised that there're quite a lot of stuff that I haven't learned yet, and therefore, I have to learn them all by myself within this week. Worse still, I've forgotten quite a lot of stuff I've learned. Argh..how am I going to do well. And writing isn't easy too. How can one possibly write an essay in 20 minutes on goodness-knows-what topic and write a reasonably good one too? Sigh..I should really stop complaining. It would just make me feel worse. I should perhaps listen to some songs which can make me feel better.


OUR LIVES (The Calling)

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Of a better life
In this world
Divided by fear
We've gotta believe that
There's a reason we're here
Yeah, there's a reason we're here

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

See the truth all around
Our faith can be broken
And our hands can be bound
But open our hearts
And fill up the emptiness
With nothing to stop us
Is it not worth the risk
Yeah, is it not worth the risk

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Cause these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

We can't go on
Thinking it's wrong
To speak our minds
I've gotta let out what's inside

Is it love tonight
When everyone's dreaming
Can we get it right
Yeah, well can we get it right

Cause these are the days worth living
These are the years we're given
And these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives
Even if hope was shattered
I know it wouldn't matter
Because these are the moments
These are the times
Let's make the best out of our lives

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Saturday, May 29, 2004

Boat Trip
I spent the first day of the holidays going for a boat trip with my tennis team mates as a treat from Wahid for getting into the semis. Not all the girls could make it but most of us, 9 in all, were there. Had to go all the way to the West Coast Ferry Terminal to board the boat. The boat itself doesn't look very big from the outside, but it's actually quite spacious. Initially, the weather didn't look promising and true enough, it started pouring soon after we left the pier. So we were confined inside the boat and left to pig out on all the food we brought. Some of the other girls then started playing mahjong and I was also learning how to play the game. After the rain subsided, we went fishing from the boat itself. Some of the girls managed to catch fish but Wahid caught the most and largest of all. Oh well.. But most of the time were spent on mostly waiting for the fish and replacing the bait. After that, we stopped at Pulau Hantu. The island was absolutely beautiful. The whole scenery made the place look like a resort to me, with coconut and other types of trees lining the island. We went crap-hunting at the island. It was really fascinating to see the craps crawling slowly out of these little holes on the sand. We would wait patiently for the craps to come out. Once we spot them, we would run and dig like crazy. Haha, but it was a lot of fun. We managed to catch quite a few craps. But the irritating thing was that the craps are very sensitive to noise, so we could barely make any noise once we spot the craps, or else they'd retreat. So we had to get ready with our sticks standing right over the holes, poised to catch the craps. We must have looked comical. After that, we went back to the boat for more fishing. Some of us who didn't fish went to the upper deck of the boat and just lazed there. The weather was perfect, with the gentle breeze blowing against our hair and the occasional waves rocking the boat gently. We took lots of pictures and it was really sad when we had to leave. All in all, it was a really fun experience though come to think of it, we didn't do anything much from 9.30am to 6pm. But what we did do a lot was to eat since there wasn't much to do. I'm wondering how to lose calories after eating so much junk food and also yesterday's food at Pizza Hut. No more tennis to help me work out. Hopefully captain's ball for sunday school tomorrow will help.

Speaking of tennis, the tennis final was held on Tuesday at, of all places, Jurong Country Club. We had to be there to umpire the match between RJC and ACJC, so we got to miss lessons again. It's quite a nice feeling to miss lessons, but it's quite sucky having to catch up after that. Anyway, the guys' final was also held on the same day and it was also between the same schools. The quality of tennis was really really good and I was just captivated. The players also really wanted to win very badly for their respective schools and their fighting spirit really made the matches very exciting. I umpired the third singles match and it was a really good match to umpire. The AC girl sprained her ankle early in the match, yet she didn't let that hinder her and went on to trash her opponent 6-1 6-3. In the end, RJ, as expected beat AC 3-2 to retain the title. But it was closer than I thought it would be. For the guys, AC won 4-1. At the end of the day, we received our medals as well. So with that, tennis season officially ended.

I'm not terribly excited about the holidays, and I think most people feel the same way too. To me, it's just like an extended study break. I mean my whole holidays are like going to be spent studying. First week is going to be spent on studying for SAT II. The remaining three weeks for Block Test. Sigh. I can't even go back home. Still, there's the Euro 2004 to look forward to. Oh well..

Still feeling quite shaky now after the boat trip. I keep on feeling as if the house has been hit by waves and is going up and down. Hope this feeling will go soon. It's kind of driving me nuts.

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Saturday, May 22, 2004

End of Season
Tennis season has finally ended. It's been one long month and in a way, I am glad it has all actually come to a close. I haven't missed training yet but I'm quite sure I'm going to miss playing tennis soon. Oh well.. which means now it's really time to get down and work hard. Anyway, we ended up fourth this year, losing to vj 2-3 in the 3rd/4th placing match. It's our best achievement in recent years and I'm glad we have managed to achieve our target of reaching the semifinals.

Another reason to be happy this week: I got A for my 2.4 run. 13min 34s. I've never gotten A before so I was really happy when I got it. And it's also my personal best time.

[from Shuping's diary]

THE ALPHABET LOVE SONG

When Johnny Jones was serenading Mary,
He sure could quote a lot of poetry
But he'd much rather tell her
what he learned in his speller
When they both attended PS thirty-three....

"A," you're adorable, "B," you're so beautiful,
"C," you're a cutie full of charms.
"D," you're a darling and "E," you're exciting
And "F," you're a feather in my arms.
"G," you look good to me, "H," you're so heavenly,
"I," you're the one I idolize.
"J," we're like Jack and Jill, "K," you're so kissable,
"L," is the lovelight in your eyes.

"M," "N," "O," "P," I could go on all day.
"Q," "R," "S," "T," alphabetically speaking, you're OK.

U," made my life complete, "V," means you're very sweet,
Double-"U" "X" "Y" "Zee."
It's fun to wander through the alphabet with you
To tell you what you mean to me.


I'll always remember all of us singing that song towards end of the season.

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Sunday, May 16, 2004

Silver
I guess I'm going to get a silver after all for NAPFA this year. For all the advice everyone has given me, I guess I'm just not cut out for SBJ. Missed by a measly 2 cm to get gold. Sigh.. to look at it in a positive light, at least I didn't miss by 1 cm. That would have been much worse. And anyway I managed to get personal bests in all the items this year, except for sit and reach. There's still 2.4 to go on wednesday. Hopefully I'll be able to get an A.

There are now fewer and fewer TV shows for me to watch. Survivor has just ended. American Idol is going to end soon. And another EPL season has also just ended. Which means I'm no longer going to have my weekly dose of EPL highlights on TV. Speaking of EPL, MU finally won, 2-0, and even though they had 2 players sent off, I'm just happy that they've finally won. Just in time for FA Cup final next week.

I've just been pondering...with this blog being public, everyone can just read it. Those who are not supposed to read can also read it. It's a pretty scary thought. After all, a diary is meant for you to reflect and jot down your innermost thoughts and feelings. Yet with this blog being public, I can't even bring myself to do that. I'm not really willing to let others know what's in my mind. I feel that this blog is merely an account of what's happening in my life, to store memories that hopefully I can look back upon in the future. I really do find it quite ironic, that I can't really have the privacy that should come with a diary.

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Saturday, May 08, 2004

High..
I've been feeling quite happy recently so that's quite a good sign. Hope the good mood will continue and carry me through the week ahead..

Anyway tennis-wise, we should have gotten into the semis. We beat AJ 4-1 (this despite all the underhanded stuff done by them) in the first quarter-final match and we're due to play VJ away on Wednesday. But I think 1 win should be enough to get us into the next round. I could feel the team spirit strongly during the match on Thursday. Even though the season has started some time ago, I could feel there were like 'tensions' in the team even though all appeared to be well on the outside. But on Thursday I think all that took a backseat as we fought hard to make it to the semis for the first time in 5 years. In the end I think what made the difference was that we wanted to win the match more. I felt quite touched seeing quite a lot of supporters and also seeing our seniors and the guys team cheering for us. Hopefully our season will end on a high.

I skipped the track meet this morning as I was too exhausted. Apparently, only 3 people from the class went. Oh well.. at least I didn't waste my morning at all. Managed to finally finish my Nitrogen Compounds tutorial. I've really been lagging behind in tutorials, barely being able to keep up. It doesn't help that I like to watch TV either..but I think that's what's been keeping me sane all this while.

Anyway MU is playing Chelsea now. It's halftime now and (surprise!) MU is down 0-1. I hope they'd at least put up a good fight in the second half and win it for me. I predicted to my brothers that MU would win the match, but neither one shared my sentiments, so I hope MU would not let me down tonight and so that they can at least keep alive their hopes of getting the second spot.

I just love the O.C.! It's such a cool show! Of course, the actors are also gorgeous. And I'm totally hooked to Simple Plan's album. And I also like Clay's Solitaire, but I seldom hear it nowadays.

Going to have 5 items next week. I'm really determined to get gold this time. Crossing my fingers about Standing Broad Jump. Oh well..just hope that all the stuff that I've done during training will not come to a waste.

My wish for next week: Not to fall asleep at night doing tutorials. Or should I say.. to sleep normally as I've been falling asleep after dinner and waking up in the wee hours of the morning before sleeping again, this past week. Sigh..

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Sunday, May 02, 2004

Music of my Heart
Argh..MU lost again. Same scoreline again..0-1. Didn't really feel sad about MU losing this time. I think I'm kind of resigned to MU losing. Madrid also lost. Oh well.. I'm not so obsessed with soccer nowadays.

John Stevens finally got eliminated from American Idol. I don't really hate him that much and I was actually quite sad to see him go, would rather have George gone instead. Anyway, I actually started tearing a little when I saw Jasmine and Diana crying and the rest looking sad. How silly. Anyway I like the last song that John sang. Going to put it here.


MUSIC OF MY HEART (N'Sync & Gloria Estefan)

You'll never know
What you've done for me
What your faith in me
Has done for my soul
And you'll never know
The gift you've given me
I'll carry it with me, yeah

Through all the days ahead
I think of days before
You made me hope for something better
And made me reach for something more

[Chorus]
You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Help me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart
You opened my eyes
You opened the door
To something i've never known before
And your love
Is the music of my heart

You were the one
Always on my side
Always standing by
Seeing me through

You were the song that always made me sing
I'm singing this for you
Everywhere i go
I think of where i've been
And of the one who knew me better
Than anyone ever will again

[Chorus]

What you taught me
Only your love could ever teach me
You got through when no one could reach me before
'cus you always saw in me
All the best that i could be
It was you who set me free

You taught me to run
You taught me to fly
Help me to free the me inside
Help me hear the music of my heart
Help me hear the music of my heart

[Chorus]

Is the music of my heart

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