I've no idea why I'm online right now at a very early hour of 2am on a Monday morning when school's going to start just five and a half hours later. I think I'm seriously going mad. I mean really. I tried to study, but again, found my efforts rather unsuccessful. Once again, I succumbed to my drowsiness and before I knew it, there I was sleeping, only to wake up at 1am. For no reason at all. I really have weird sleeping pattern nowadays. I fell asleep mugging for five consecutive nights last week. And each time, I would wake up at past midnight. The best was when I woke up at 2.30am and after seeing that I'd slept for 4 hours, decided to mug till 4am before going to sleep again. Sigh. As usual, it's been a very unproductive weekend for me. In terms of revision. Didn't make so much progress. But I've finally finished all my tutorials and homework, including fluids 2. And managed to do all those pw stuff. At least I can concentrate on studying now. I really hope I don't fall asleep studying.
An update on soccer results: Leicester 1 Man Utd 4. Ruud scored a hat-trick.
Promos are just 10 days away. And yet my revision has just started. Well, I must somehow get inspired and motivated to study. Sacrifices must be made. No more going online for unnecessary stuff, watch less tv and if possible, abstain from tv until exams finish (though I think that is highly improbable), no more slacking around. And the list goes on. Sigh..I guess I have to think ahead. The suffering is only for 17 more days. After that, I will be rid of all the stresses and be free to do anything I want. Sometimes I wish I can just fly away from this world, flee from all the burden and pressure, but I have to face up to the reality of life. Noone said it would be easy. But I will do my best. And that's a promise.
To all those out there who are going to have exams, all the best. You can do it!
I finally finished Integration tutorial 2, which I started on Wednesday. 3 days to finish a tutorial... and that was probably the messiest tutorial i've ever done in my whole entire life, with all the crosses on almost every page. Went for dental appointment this morning, and the dentist told me that I probably can take off the braces next month after exams! Finally.. but actually, I was quite surprised because I was supposed to put them on for 18 months..but if the dentist really does take them off, that means I'd only worn it for 11 months, less than a year! I've finally started my revision too..which is obviously very late compared to my classmates. Still..I started and that's what matters most right? The school rankings is also finally out today. Been looking out for it in August. Didn't know it'd come out so late. Well, MG is ranked 11th this year, out of the top 10, and down from 7th place last year. Oh well. Hopefully, the juniors will do better next year.
BEST IN ME
(by Blue)
From the moment I met you
I just knew you'd be mine
You touched my hand
And I knew that this was gonna be our time
I don't ever wanna lose this feeling
I don't wanna spend a moment apart
'Cos you bring out the best in me
Like noone else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you
Every day that I'm here with you
I know that it feels right
And I've just got to be near you
Every day and every night
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me
Like noone else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you
And you know that we belong together
It just had to be you and me
'Cos you bring out the best in me
Like noone else can do
That's why I'm by your side
And that's why I love you
That song is still one of my all-time favourites. Too bad my Blue CD is spoilt and somehow, it cannot play that song properly. Of all songs..sigh. Wanted to download that song real badly, but of course, I can't. Sigh..the good ol' days.
So the match ended in a goaless draw. Man Utd 0 Arsenal 0. But what a fracas! Even though I didn't watch the match, from what I have gathered, Arsenal players didn't behave properly and unsurprisingly, my brother has chosen to defend them. Two of us, me and my the other brother, had an argument, sort of. He still claimed that Arsenal was the better side after enduring about 10 mins with 10 men and without Sol Campbell. What can I say? At least MU didn't lose the match. I predicted a draw. But the outcome pains me more knowing the fact that MU could have won the game at the last minute. Except that Ruud had to miss the penalty, 3rd time this season. He has missed all the spotkicks this season, and to think that, over the past two seasons, he has had an unblemished record in taking spotkicks. And it's not that Arsenal goalkeeper saved it. No..Ruud, in fact, managed to send the keeper the wrong way, but it's just that he had to shoot against the crossbar. Well... I pity Ruud, though, the way he got confronted at the end. No wonder he ran away. Sigh. So in the end the match ended in a mess, and I really hope that Arsenal players will get punished for their behaviour.
I don't know why, for some reason, I've decided to blog. Wasn't planning to blog as well, I didn't feel like blogging. Sunday school today was great and well, the message totally touched me, right to my heart, even shed a few tears. Sigh. The weather over the weekend hasn't been that great. It's been pouring all weekend. I don't really like heavy rain accompanied with thunder and lightning in the afternoon, in fact, I don't like rain when it falls in the afternoon. I don't know, somehow it dampens my mood. I prefer it when it rains at night, but sadly, that doesn't seem to be the case now. Sigh. What have I accomplished today? Finish English summary. Finish Buffers. Did compilation for 2nd draft of written report. Sorted out my file. Zero revision as of now. I've promised to do revision after dinner, well, it remains to be seen as to whether I can actually finish what I had started out to do today. Tried to do some of the homework last night after finishing waves 1, but too bad I fell asleep while studying, and only woke up at 3am, with lights on and stuff. This has happened to me many times, and that was while I was studying physics. I wouldn't be surprised if I had fallen asleep much earlier if I had studied Econs instead, which is a lot more boring. Duh. It seems the only motivation for me to study is the long break after promos, well, the suffering is only for 3 weeks more right? Good grades were supposed to be the motivation, but it doesn't seem so to me right now. Sigh. And PW is totally driving me nuts. How on earth did they think they could infuse thinking skills by infusing a subject called Project Work? I mean..we're like faking everything..and our analysing of information is totally forced. I mean, we were supposed to acquire analysing skills, but I don't think we'd even bother to analyse articles we get in future. Sigh. And I seriously do not know how on earth we're going to cut down on words. As of now, it stands at 3190 (longer than first draft), after subtracting comments and citation, and excluding a proper conclusion and some parts of the plan that are not properly done up yet and our survey. Sigh. OK, I shall stop sighing and get on with life.
Sigh..another week has gone..which means one less week to study for promos. This week, the progress I've made has been disappointing, only studied for the chem eqm test. Sigh..and with me not completing all the tutorials during the holidays, i'm going to have even less time to study. I'm practically stressed out over promos and freaking out whenever I hear people having started studying or almost finishing or whatever. Maybe I'm too obsessed with doing well, or reasonably well, for promos that I am stressing myself out thinking about not having enough time to study practically all the time. Oh well, typical me, think too much but zero action carried out.
Anyway, was glad that zaneta asked me to go to student venture, a small christian grp thing, this morning cos she was leading worship, even though i had to come to school at 7 which is super early for me. Decided to go with marian cos both of us had never gone for this thing before and were a bit scared. Turns out that I know quite a lot of people there. Anyway, the songs we sang were nice, singing those songs really reminded me of chapel days in mg that i've really grown to miss, though they all seem to be reminding me of the need to not forget about God during this period of time because we are so caught up with studying and stuff. Sounds familiar. Nearly cried when singing So You Would Come. Oh well... at least I still have quiet time, trying to read the bible for a while before i go to sleep every night.
I'm glad to hear my dad is OK back home. Last Sunday, he somehow slipped and fell while playing tennis (the court must have been quite slippery), and my mum had to go change her flight home to the earliest possible on Monday. I think he tore some ligaments, but anyway, it was quite bad that he needed an operation. He's at least out of the hospital now, but can only walk properly on one leg. Hope that he'll get ok soon.
MU vs Arsenal. The big game on Sunday. My prediction is either a draw or a win for MU. But I'm a bit weary of Arsenal. I'm quite scared they'd be motivated to play very well having lost 0-3 to Inter at home. But I'm quite confident MU can prevail, so hopefully they will. Even my brother, who is an Arsenal fan, thinks that it is unlikely Arsenal will win, though he's definitely hoping otherwise.
Whitney:
Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could
Oah yes
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
Mariah:
In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say
There can be miracles
When you believe
(Whitney Houston: When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
(Whitney Houston: You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
Both:
They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
Ohhhhh
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe
Heh..feel a lot happier over the weekend. Don't know why. Maybe cos I actually managed to accomplish something worthwhile..like at least attempting to mug and actually finishing one chapter of econs. Sigh. Never mind though. At least I tried to start studying..better than nothing I guess. Saw the time table today. Malay is together with Math on Thursday..and Physics on Friday. Uh-oh..not a good prospect. Although Mr Quek said the paper would be easy, I still have an uneasy feeling about the paper. And Econs Paper 3..which is essay..of all papers..together with GP. And Econs Paper 1 and 2 which are like easier is the following week after chem. How absurd is that? Truly reminds me of Geog last year. Tried to map out some sort of timetable. After looking at what I have to cover each week in order to finish studying by the time the exam comes, I think I gotta need some great miracle. Bleah. And my speed of studying doesn't help matters either...sigh. I shall stop complaining and do my best. That's right..do my best. Whatever..
Just came back from MAF..well not just, it's about an hour since I came back. Sigh..I'm dead tired, exhausted. After so much walking around in school. And I am totally demoralised after knowing what the others have finished.. sigh..as usual, I'm lagging behind. Not a good feeling. Just can't get myself to study...what's new right? Sigh..if I'm deemed to failure, so be it. MU and Charlton are still at 0-0 at the moment..hope MU can win..then maybe it will make me slightly happier.
Went to watch Legally Blonde today with Anna. The cinema was unexpectedly quite empty, maybe cos it's quite early in the morning and everyone was probably going to watch turn left turn right..so we had good seats. The movie is hilarious. Reese Witherspoon is such a good actress, well..her enthusiasm is really infectious..and her outfit, pet dog (forgot the name) and rather ridiculous plot and lines had me laughing quite a lot throughout the entire movie. Well, it's money worth spent, although I must admit the plot is quite stupid, but then I went to watch it for entertainment. Yup. Anyway, it was pretty lame that I went out just to watch the movie and came home right after that. OK, we walked around a little bit, but my mum didn't allow me to go out for too long, so I didn't have much of a choice except to go home. Zaneta and Saby were supposed to go with us on the promise we made a long time ago that we'd watch Legally Blonde together, but they'd decided to stay home to study instead, which made me a little guilty. Anyway, I did some work after coming home (i'm so totally sick of writing expressions for Ka and finding pH and stuff...), which has made me a little less guilty. Still, I still have lots to do..I better get on to sketching curves after this. Hate sketching but not much of a choice really. I've kind of devised like a timetable. But sticking to it is another matter. So far though, I'm happy that I've roughly stuck to it, which is quite good considering that I never follow my schedule and stuff.
I resolved at the beginning of the week to run in the morning. Well, I ran on Tuesday..ran for about 3 rounds or so..ok I walked a little..but anyway, my stamina and fitness must have been pretty bad, legs were aching when I woke up. Don't think I can run for the rest of the week though, cos my skin on my right foot peeled a little from wearing my new pair of slippers yesterday when going out for dinner, and it's quite painful. Sigh..there goes my plan to at least work out. But I've been playing table tennis quite a bit during the holidays, which is quite good. I've improved my skills..haha, I guess it's partly due to the fact that I play tennis more often..but anyway, table tennis is supposed to be good for your control, of the ball.
I guess i better get on with my work now. Been online for quite a long time already...
Well..it's official. Roddick has won his first Grand Slam title, beating Ferrero in the US Open final. I couldn't decide who to support, well, because both are my favourite players. Anyway, got up at 7 this morning with the intention of going online to check the scores and hoping my mum hasn't woken up yet, before going to school. Too bad my mum woke up, so I resorted to the watching the news. Couldn't sleep properly last night thinking about the final. I think I'm really too obsessed with this match. Anyway, felt a bit sad when I found out Roddick win. Maybe I had wanted Ferrero to win more. Sigh. Perhaps I was a little bit influenced by my brothers, who had wanted Ferrero to win cos they so don't like Roddick, even though Ferrero "the mosquito" had beaten Agassi, and Agassi was my bro's favourite player. Too bad Roddick won on my the other bro's birthday. Anyway, still quite happy Roddick won though. Haha. Sigh. Was totally dreaming and staring at the sports on tv section in life yesterday, thinking of what I would have done and what it would be like with cable TV. I think I'm really going crazy with this cable tv stuff. I told my mum once again I wanted cable tv, but she said she couldn't subscribe cos my brothers are not disciplined enough. Blame my brothers now..I really do have to blame other people. Haha. Sigh..this holiday is so boring, practically have to work hard for the coming promos. At least I'll be going out once this week to watch Legally Blonde. That'll be enough to keep me sane, I hope.
US Open Men's Singles Final
Andy Roddick USA (4) bt Juan Carlos Ferrero ESP (3) 6-3 7-6(7-2) 6-3
Haven't blogged for quite a while. Well, i'm just glad that this whole term is over. Teacher's day last week (went back to MG, which was great), holiday on Monday, then plenty of tests and deadlines to meet..I'm just glad that the vacation has finally arrived, finally can give myself a little bit of break, although I know that I still have a lot of catch-up to do. Sigh.
Anyway, right now, I'm enjoying my holidays first. Am very happy this morning. Even though Kim lost the final to Justine for the US Open title, it's gonna be Ferrero vs Roddick in the men's final! What can I say? I like them both, I don't know who to support right now. Ferrero played great to beat Agassi, I didn't expect him to beat Agassi, and Roddick came back from a match point down to beat Nalbadian. Haha. The only sad thing is that Kim lost, but I mean at least a non-Williams won, which is a great thing. Oh..and England beat Macedonia 2-1. Well, at least now they topped the group which is great. The same cant be said of Wales though. I was hoping that they would win, I knew it would be an uphill task, but I cant stand the Italians anyway, so I was hoping Wales would win. Too bad they got trashed 0-4. Wanted Ryan Giggs to finally get his wish of playing at international tournaments for Wales. Oh well...I'm writing anyhow. Haha.
Tomorrow's my brother's birthday. Well..and Tuesday was my the other brother's birthday. Too bad he had to spend it away on OBS camp. Haha. If I were him, I probably wouldn't have survived the camp. I mean, I probably wouldn't even go to the camp..who'd want to spend your birthday away on camp? Oh well.
Anyway, I'm like so incoherent now. Can't write properly. I just can't wait for the US Open final. Too bad I don't have cable (blame my mum), so I can't watch the match. Sigh. Never mind. I'm just happy with the two of them being in the final, so I won't mind whoever wins.
Sigh..my com has got problems again, and it's like a new com. The sound system is spoilt, which means I can't listen to songs. Sigh..quite scared to download songs nowadays.. i feel angry for not being able to download songs, but everytime I want to download songs, I'll feel guilty and a little bit scared. I guess I can't somehow ignore my conscience.
Anyway, I'm like right now deliriously happy. Hope this is a sign of a good week ahead for me.
Scores:
US Open Tennis
Justine Henin-Hardenne BEL (2) bt Kim Clijsters BEL (1) 7-5 6-1
Juan Carlos Ferrero ESP (3) bt Andre Agassi USA (1) 6-4 6-3 3-6 6-4
Andy Roddick USA (4) bt David Nalbandian ARG (13) 6-7(4-7) 3-6 7-6(9-7) 6-1 6-3
Soccer Euro 2004 Qualifiers
Macedonia 0 England 2
Italy 4 Wales 0
France 5 Cyprus 0
Austria 1 Holland 3
Iceland 0 Germany 0
Soccer Friendly
Spain 3 Portugal 0