OK..anyway..I'm going to attempt to write the same entry that I wrote last night. Sigh. Can't believe that I was so careless as to delete it, after spending so much time writing that entry. Anyway, yupz...another week has passed by at a breakneck speed. Gosh..can't believe everything flies by so quickly! Now it's July...can't believe that more than half a year has gone by. Soon, I'll be taking promos, then, I'll be in J2 and like Mrs Goh said, I'll not be in college anymore. So sad. I dare not imagine what the future will be like. Anyway, just realised I haven't blogged a proper entry for the whole week. So here goes...
On Monday, after an exhausting weekend doing CIP for the Streetwise Run thing at Sentosa on Saturday and Sunday, and still attempting to get over the after-effects of Block Tests, I went out to watch Charlie's Angels with Anna, Zaneta and Allison. Deborah was supposed to come too but she backed out and went home to sleep instead at the last minute. Actually, I was supposed to have a class outing at Sentosa (again), but decided to give it a miss because I certainly did not want to go to Sentosa again and really wanted to watch the movie. Anyway, finally gave Anna and Zanet their long-overdue birthday presents (owed since March). Oh well. We went to play at the arcade after buying the tix. Just realised at that point that I haven't played for a long time at the arcade. Wanted to play air hockey, but the stupid machines were spoilt, in the end played the car racing and puzzle bubble. Haha. The movie was nice, really funny and cool. Love the dance moves! And I think Demi Moore really has a hot bod! And all the angels are so pretty. But the movie really has no plot. Still, after the Block Tests, who cares whether the movie has a plot or not. Most important thing is to have fun and laugher rite? Also met Bernice to give her her birthday present and met a whole lot of other ex-mg schoolmates, classmates and teachers. Interesting how we met so many people that day. I really enjoyed myself that day..at least before school started again.
I really dreaded going to school the past week. Results week. Who'd want to see their results? I certainly did not want to see mine, for I know that I've not done my best, although I tried doing as much as I could at that point in time. Anyway, I guess it's better to face reality now than later right? Oh well..nobody really wanted to go to school. Expected. As for the results, have gotten back 2 subjects so far. I'm quite happy with the results lah..at least haven't failed any yet. Got a B for Math and D for Physics. My mum, I think, was a bit unhappy with my Math results as she thinks I could have done better had I slept earlier during the block tests, but I'm really glad she isn't angry with my results at all. Phew. Oh well..all these results made me wonder though if I have made the wrong decision, if I should have just gone there instead. My mum too asked me if I regretted. Well, I did regret a little, but I have made my decision. I resolve not to regret on my decision and well, just to look ahead instead.
Oh yes, my uncle and cousins came here from Bangkok earlier last week. Got to play with my cousins. Was really happy to see them because, even though I've just seen them at last month's family gathering, I'm quite close to them. At least they speak English. Haha. Played UNO with one of those cousins, another one from back home, another working cousin and my two brothers. It's really a long long time since I last played UNO. Kind of missed playing it actually. Last time in MG, we always played UNO cos only UNO cards were allowed. But in HC, everyone is playing Bridge, Daidee or Hearts. Nobody plays UNO. So anyway, we the older people got beaten by two of the younger cousins. Quite funny actually. In the next round, those two cousins backed out and my uncle came in. I finally prevailed. Haha. Well, at least I was happy and had fun playing with my cousins. I guess sometimes, family is much more important than school work because after all, my relatives don't come here very often, so have to make the most out of their visits.
Had my first tennis training after the holidays on Wednesday. Even though I played during the holidays, I guess the effects of studying for BT have taken a toll on me. I played really badly and my game was rusty. Gotta improve and train harder if I want to make the first 11 next year. Anyway, had my make-up baptism class on Wednesday night, for one class I missed last time. Had a surprise when I met all my three sunday school teachers. Having now completed the class, I can actually be baptised, but like last time, I somehow don't feel ready to be baptised just yet. Oh well.
On Friday, after school, went with zaneta to KAP and met a whole lot of my mg friends there. Allison, Carlin, Ivana, Wendy, Jessie, Huiling, Evelyn, Deborah and Jac. Haven't seen Ivana for a long time since she went to Australia. She looks so different! Anyway, saw Yanxi and Bing Yi there with their girl friends, and later on Jinyong came with his friends. Had so much fun talking crap and catching up with MG friends. Well, as it turned out, everyone did badly for exams. Then Huiling excitedly told me that Beckham's number at MU and his new number at Real Madrid make up her birthday. 23/7. Yeah right, which reminds me also that her birthday is coming in like less than 2 weeks. Oh well. Guess she's as much a Beckham fan as ever, although I'm really glad that she'll remain a loyal MU fan. (Speaking of MU, got MU teddy bear and ruud's water bottle from kelvin as birthday presents, thank you very much. As usual, my mum made a fuss about me getting mu stuff again. sigh.). Then, jessie suddenly realised that one of jinyong's friends was from her og group at SA. She then tried unsuccessfully to recall his name, even sms-ed her friend but to no avail. So in the end, had to msg jinyong and ask him for his friend's name on her behalf, but his friend remembers her name. Haha. Left early with zaneta, allison, carlin, ivana and evelyn to go to the Sec 4 class party. It was raining and really tried super hard to catch a cab. Sigh, the weather nowadays is really sucky lah. Hate it. Anyway, the party was supposed to be at 5.30pm, but although we reached there at 7pm, we were still one of the earliest. 4a2 is a really late class..people were still arriving at 9+. Anyway, ate whatever few food there were (very few brought food even though it's supposed to be a potluck). Ms Ho also came. She looks really different! Really, now she keeps longer hair than last time. Oh mine. Anyway, after that as usual, we broke into cliques again. In some sense, I find 4A2 and 03S69 very similar. There are cliques in the class, but I guess at least in 69, I can still talk to everyone, but in A2, that's not the case. It was supposed to be a class party, but where was the interaction? We played bridge (missed playing bridge) in our cliques. It's really sad. Last time when I was still in MG, even though our class was never a united class, I could at least talk to some people from other cliques. But on Friday, I only stuck to my clique, didn't even say hi to the rest. Same for the rest. It's really strange and awkward. Ms Ho also came and just sat there to watch Amazing Race and other TV programs she could find, with Rachel. Well, I guess, this is what happens when one loses touch with old friends. I've only kept in contact with a few from my sec 4 class, and yes, we've become closer in a sense, and also with people who end up in HC and church. But as for the rest, well, I guess we've sort of drifted away. It's really sad. But somehow, I really cannot do anything about it.
Speaking of Amazing Race, last week, I dreamt that Kelly and Jon would be eliminated. As it turned out, it was Tian and Jaree who got eliminated instead. Well, it was sort of a mixed feeling. I was glad that well, my pyschic stuff didn't come true, I'd rather be a normal person than be a psychic..that would totally freak me out. Anyway, even though I hated Tian and Jaree initially, the last 2 episodes, I have grown to love them. I mean, they epitome the girl power and anyway, they have stopped fighting already. Oh well. Bad luck to them I guess.
Sigh..been feeling really sian these days. Don't know why. Especially after the holidays. I feel a bit more out in class too. Don't know why. Like last time could talk to almost everyone, now I'm really quiet and seldom talk. I feel bothered by...stuff, but don't know what the stuff is. Sigh. Well, I really hope everything will turn out better for me these coming weeks. Guess I have to be more cheerful and not to let myself get so stressed out or overwhelmed by all the stuff that is going on.
Went to sunday school this morning. Haven't been going to the class for quite a while, since I went back home for the holidays. Felt much better afterwards. And the songs that we sang just now, really find them very meaningful. I guess God wants me to know that whatever happens, He'll always be right beside me, guiding me and leading me on. Thank you Lord.
All that I am, all that I have
I lay them down before You, O Lord
All my regrets, all my acclaim
The joy and the pain I'm making them yours
Lord I offer my life to You
Everything I've been through
Use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You
As a living sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life
Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes, all of my pains
My heart and my hands are lifted to You