Often I wonder, 'What's the use of studying all this when you're not even sure what you're going to be in future?' Really..I'm pretty sure what I'm studying right now..monopoly, PC, differentiation, trigo, thermodynamics, oscillations..aren't going to be remotely useful in future. True..it may be relevant to university work, but people told me that what we cover in A level is not going to be covered as much in university, anyway, it's not really going to be relevant to my future. A timely reminder came from a family friend back home when, seeing me trying to mug for the block tests, commented that by the time we grow up, we'll have forgotten much, if not almost all, of what we study. Oh well. I'm really not sure what I'm going to be when I grow up. My so-called ambition changes constantly. I remembered when I was young I wanted to be a doctor. Then, seeing how doctor has to deal with you know..all those injections and not so pleasant stuff, I switched to wanting to be a teacher. Then I thought being a teacher was too stressful, so I wanted to be a piano teacher instead, since I recalled when I was young, I had a huge interest in playing piano. But I thought I wouldn't earn much by being just a piano teacher, so from that point on, till now, my ambition is to become an engineer. Of course..that's just fantasy..and it may never come true. I mean...I don't think I can ever see myself being an engineer. For all I know, I may be a housewife instead. But there are things that for certain. For one, I'm never going to be a doctor..I can't stand the sight of blood. Oh well. Anyway..in this world, whatever I become, I just have to work hard to earn it. And if I ever don't feel like studying again, I guess one motivation to study would be to think how hard my parents have worked and to appreciate how fortunate I am to be studying here right now. Oh well. That's why I guess sometimes I feel bad when I feel I haven't done well enough and let my parents down. Anyway, hopefully, my grades will be enough (though I know it's not) to repay what my parents have done for me, and that they'll be happy and not regret what they've done by sending all of us overseas.
One just gotta work to achieve his dreams right?