Thursday, October 07, 2004
This week's just been really horrible for me. Got back physics today... sigh got a D. And I was expecting to get at least a C since I thought that physics was much much better than chem. Turns out that I just need 2 more marks to get a C for both prelim and overall. And what hurts is that I made so many unbeliveably silly mistakes. Like using correction tape for just 1 number, not calculating the final answer after I've put in all the numbers into the equation, not finishing prac cos I didn't know that I'd a few more minutes left, cancelling correct answers (did that for at least 3 qns). I feel so lousy. But I guess the main problem was that again I didn't prepare well enough. It's entirely my own fault. It probably would have been an injustice if I'd gotten higher. Maybe I should be thankful that I didn't get lower than what I've gotten. But how am I supposed to apply using such lousy grades I have? I'm trying to cheer myself up and not be so upset about it, but it's not really working so far cos everytime I think about the future and about what could've been and the disappointment that must've been felt by my parents, I can't help but just feel like crying and escaping from this world. But obviously that's not an option. I'll just pray that God will give me the strength to carry on and not brood over all the disappointments I've had. I'll just trust in God cos well, everything is in His hands. I just hope I can learn from past mistakes and do better in A levels. Which is easier said than done cos I don't seem to have the motivation to study anymore. But I must must must somehow motivate myself. Next up is SAT II on Saturday. I must really forget about all my results and concentrate on improving my score.
Thanks to sinhui and ailian for having tried to cheer me up and helping me to get more marks.
posted by vivien at 5:19 AM
