Saturday, February 19, 2005
I'm so glad this week is over! I need some rest right now. I've been so busy this week, so many things to do. And I'm very tired, exhausted. I've been sleeping even later this week, averaging less than 5 hours. I wonder how I even survived the week. I know, I broke my promises to myself, my mum and friends about sleeping earlier. Sigh, and I didn't even touch my Chinese stuff at all. Lots of homework for me to catch up on this coming week.
Anyway, I am so relieved that the prayer retreat went smoothly. I was supposed to help set up a station, but I had conveniently forgotten about it, hoping that the others would do the work. Turned out that no one did any work, so it was a last-minute rush to plan and complete everything. Since we didn't have much time left, we couldn't do much. Luckily, we managed to come up with a set-up and I think our station looked all right, even though there were only posters, verses and questions.
Then, I had to play the keyboard for worship this morning. I haven't played the piano for quite some time, and I didn't know how to play the chords. Thank goodness Zaneta was able to teach and help me with the chords. But I was still quite confused. There were just so many chords. Today, I messed up quite a bit. It was a bit hard for me to play during the faster songs, but I think I did okay for them. The slow songs were the ones that tripped me up, even though I had practised playing for them more than I did for the faster songs. I think I was just very nervous. And when I started making mistakes, I got all panicky and started making even more mistakes. When Daniel started singing at the wrong key for one of the songs, I completely didn't know what to do. Think I almost stopped playing for the whole song haha. But today is my first time and I had already expected to make mistakes. I guess I'll learn to play better with more practice.
One of the things I regretted not doing was to slow down and quieten myself. I just had so many things to do and so many things on my mind that I forgot to sit down and reflect. And yes, I barely did any quiet time this week. Think I only did for 2 days. That's very bad. It's not because of indiscipline or anything; I think I was just too tired from having slept so little. I usually do my quiet time before I sleep, but because I was so sleepy, I fell asleep reading the Bible. Other days, I'd just fall asleep doing other stuff. I've been sleeping at irregular times. It happened almost everyday this week. I think if I continue living like this, it's going to kill me slowly.
Channel 5 ISN'T going to show the MU-Milan match! They're showing Barcelona-Chelsea instead. It sucks! Okay I know Barca-Chelsea is going to be quite a good match, but I still want my MU's match! Argh! I was so looking forward to watching it. Showing the second leg only is going to be useless. Because I won't be able to watch it. My mum will be here. She will definitely not allow me to wake up in the morning to watch a match. Maybe I'm just not meant to watch the match. Sigh. Oh ya, MU beat Everton 2-0. Hooray!
I just remembered that I haven't written in my diary for like ages. I just had no time, or rather I fell asleep (usually write before I go to sleep). I shall attempt to write an entry tonight. Anyway, after so much rambling here, I shall take a nap. I need to sleep!
posted by vivien at 11:06 PM