Saturday, February 05, 2005
This week has been really tiring for me. I'm physically and mentally drained. There are just so many things that I have to do and I think I'm getting stressed. Unbelievable. My time management sucks as usual. I know I have to sleep earlier. An average of 5 hours of sleep isn't enough. But I just don't seem to get that point. After lunch, I'd just iron my clothes and I'd just spend the rest of the afternoon in front of the computer, doing absolutely nothing. Well, I have no good reason to be in front of the com for so long, but I'd just somehow find something to do with the com. And obviously I'd get carried away and end up having dinner at a later and later time. After dinner, I'd watch 2 hours of tv. After that? I'd try to do my Chinese stuff. Yup, only then. And even when I've nothing much to do and my eyelids feel heavy and I find myself dozing off at regular little intervals, I'd just refuse to sleep. It's like, in my mind, 12 is still too early to sleep. So I'd just somehow do something till it's like 2. That's when I think it's really really late, so I'd go to sleep.
My mum, who came back from Perth yesterday, reminded me that she spent quite an amount on my Chinese lessons. Sudden realization. Dare I say it? I think I've been wasting her money. I've been doing the homework all right, but I haven't been reading the notes and stuff. And the stack of stuff is growing.. Felt really guilty. But that's not the only guilt I felt during the week. Felt worse when I had to tell a white lie to my mum. She knew that I've been sleeping really late, so while she was away, she kept asking me what time I'd been sleeping. So I lied to her. I lied that I've been sleeping 1 or 2 hours earlier than I've actually been sleeping at. I didn't want to get scolded and I didn't want her to worry too much about me. Sigh.. after As, my life seems to be a complete mess.
Incoherent rambling. Anyway, I just saw the goals MU scored against Arsenal. How sweet! :)
posted by vivien at 1:57 AM
