Monday, April 03, 2006
During matrix class just now, I felt overwhelmed again. Overwhelmed by everything (mostly schoolwork). Feeling super sian and stressed. I know I shouldn't let all these negative thoughts affect me, yet I can't help it. I'm just really sick of everything. Why am I always trapped in this crazy mess? Why can't I, for once, just be free from the cycle and enjoy life the way I want to? I feel like I've no life at all, always being limited and controlled by time, or lack thereof. And it's not that I don't put in effort. I do, but it's just that it's taking up such an insane amount of my time (especially programming..thank goodness it's the last programming course I've to take), that I just get discouraged and feel defeated. It sucks. I want more time to do everything that I want to do. But that'd mean more hours, longer days to get through, and I'll have to survive a much longer week. Sigh.
I just want to go home! Like right now! To just escape from this place and all its craziness.
posted by vivien at 4:13 PM
