Saturday, July 01, 2006
I'm just feeling really overwhelmed about going back. Somehow, the realization that I'm going to go back soon just hit me. Going back this time feels very different from going back in December. I can't really explain it too. Perhaps I'm more homesick this time, just that I don't really realize that I'm homesick? Or that I've been away from home for a longer period of time that there seems to be a greater sense of anticipation this time? I really can't pinpoint why, but it definitely feels different.
Sometimes, I wonder whether my parents know I feel very homesick being so far from home for such a long period of time. They don't seem to think that I'm that homesick here. They seem to think that I'm enjoying my life here (well I do I guess..) and that I'm strong enough to be away from my family in such a far place for such a long period of time. Perhaps they think that I've gotten used to being away from my family from my days in Singapore. But living in Singapore and in Pittsburgh is totally different. I do get homesick very often and I miss my family a lot. When will they ever understand that?
posted by vivien at 4:11 AM