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Saturday, August 05, 2006

My parents are pampering me and treating me really well here. Hehe. They buy me LOTS of Indonesian food and cakes to try, which is really bad, cos I'm bad at resisting temptation when it comes to food. How to lose weight?? It's really impossible, not when there's always lots of tidbits and what not in your house. And it's not good when the first thing everyone I've met here asked me is: "How much weight did you put on?" Oh dear. Despite that, I still eat all the stuff anyway. Not like you get to it eat it that often right (trying to convince myself that I'm doing the right thing haha).

Today, went out with mum to Taman Anggrek, one of the biggest shopping centres here, for lunch and shopping. Had a good talk with her during lunch and bought lots of stuff again. I've really been spending a lot this hols and I feel so bad, but I can't help buying stuff. Haha. Well, I guess it was nice spending time with her. My parents took me out for dinner at my favorite seafood restaurant here. Place was packed as usual, but food was yummy yummy yummy! Hehe.

So far, I've really enjoyed myself here. I've been doing nothing much really, except for tennis, driving and just spending time with my parents. Next week will probably be busier cos I'll be meeting up with friends and going out more. But for now, I'm just content with the considerably slower pace of life here. You know, finding things to do to kill time instead of finding time to do the things you need/want to do. Must really enjoy my time here as much as I can cos once I get back to singapore and pittsburgh, it'll be a mad rush all over again.

I actually pity my parents' chauffeur, who has to accompany me if I want to go about and practise driving. To put it bluntly, I think my driving sucks. Or maybe I just need more practice. Whatever the case, I think sitting in a car with me driving it (and at the way I'm driving now) is kind of a nightmare and gives him a heart-attack. Haha. Yesterday, I almost crashed into two cars just as I was getting out from the apartment complex. I only didn't crash cos my chauffeur was shouting at me to brake the car. Engine died again cos I stepped on the brake too far without stepping on the clutch. I'm basically having all sorts of problems la. Always brake late or abruptly (doesn't help that the car brake is pretty sharp too), tend to step on the clutch first and then the brake instead of stepping on the brake first then clutch, so the car speeds up instead of slowing down, don't look left/right when I drive or want to overtake/change lane/make a U-turn, drive too slowly (well for yesterday..cos of that bad start of nearly crashing) so sometimes other cars will honk which is really irritating, etc. I haven't done much parking yet or driving on the slope, which is probably my weakest point. Sigh. Maybe I'm just not cut out for driving. Or perhaps I should only drive an auto car. Oh well.

I was reminded that I've only about 18 days left before going back. Why are the holidays passing by so quickly? Sigh. I really don't want to go back.

Quite a few people have asked me whether I prefer Singapore or Pittsburgh. Each time, my answer has been Singapore. Nicer food, nicer weather (at least it's less unpredictable) and most importantly, that's where most of my family and friends are. If you ask me whether I prefer Jakarta or Pittsburgh, I'd say Jakarta too, simply because that's where my family is. But if you ask me whether I prefer Singapore or Jakarta, I really can't answer that question. Just sometime ago, I would have probably answered Singapore. Probably because I'm just more used to the lifestyle there. Even now, I consider myself more of a Singaporean than an Indonesian. I'm feeling like a foreigner, here for a short visit, even though I'm Indonesian, whereas in Singapore, I felt as if I was totally at home. Doesn't help that I can't converse in Indonesian fluently. I talk to my parents in English and I speak broken Indonesian. It's like speaking Indonesian in a very English way..almost as bad as me speaking Chinese in an English manner. It's a shame really..me almost neglecting my Indonesian roots, considering that I was born in Indonesia and spent my childhood there. It really doesn't feel that I belong here. Is it supposed to be like this? Am I supposed to feel this way? I don't know.

I've been sleeping and waking up late recently. My mum isn't happy that I'm doing that. Gotta turn in early tonight though. Church tomorrow is at 7am!

posted by vivien at 10:43 AM




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