My appetite has been very unrestrained this week. Which makes me feel very very guilty. I've just been eating A LOT in general. Just keep on eating and eating, snacking on various stuff, even though I don't feel hungry.
I haven't decided whether I should go to NY yet, but my parents have postponed me going back by one day anyway. Which makes me feel rather obligated to go to NY, but oh well. Air fares look rather cheap, but I hate the idea of going there by myself. And going there for an interview. It's gonna be very tiring with all the traveling. I'm supposed to go back to Jakarta on Christamas eve and I'll be heading to Bali after that for family reunion! Before going back to Singapore again.
I dreamt last night that I was on the plane ride back to Singapore and I was just so happy to be going back. Then I woke up, looked around me and the realization that I was somewhere far away from home hit me and suddenly, I just found this place so foreign. What a way to start the day! Sigh. The thought of going back and December holidays has been playing in my mind a lot lately. I hope I'm not homesick or burned out or anything. This sem is probably the slackest in that I only have a 3-day week now (though the work is still more or less the same), but you know, I really do wonder, with all the amount of time I have, how come I'm still so last-minute? Rushing off everything right before the deadline? What have I been spending (read: wasting) my time on?