So many emotions and thoughts bottled up inside of me. But there seems to be no way of letting it all out. Sometimes, I really do feel lonely..does anyone really understand how I feel deep inside?
I think I probably have hurt myself a lot this past week, just thinking too much about stuff and getting myself lost in my thoughts. My mind is just too distracted. Even during econs review just now, the only thing I was thinking about was whether I should drop child psych. Well, let's just say I'm barely coping with 6 courses. It has been a downward spiral ever since the thought of dropping the course entered my mind. On one hand, why bother taking the course if you are so unhappy and so stressed out by it? But I don't seem to have the guts to drop the course. I can't bring myself to just say "okay, I give up" and let it go. I feel uncomfortable backing out of something once I have started on it. This sucks and I think I'm really going insane and crazy because of this.
Words can't probably express how I feel right now. I feel really sorry for myself that I have gotten myself into such a depressing state. I'm really sorry to all those who have had to put up with my complaining and b**ching about this past week, with all the mood swings and becoming fiercer. I guess I really am stressed. And what I said this morning when I woke up was not very comforting. Just shows that I really am definitely almost out of my mind.
Sigh. I wish I can just say everything that is inside of me to someone. Anyone. Because keeping it all inside is just hurting me.
I hope this is just a temporary phase.