I'm just really really STRESSED right now, and I think it has sadly brought out the worst side in me. No use complaining right? But it is so hard not to complain. SIGH again. I hope (and I stress the word hope) I will be able to survive the coming week, with so many many things to do, that I am left again with a familiar dilemma: Too many things to do, but not enough time. Of course, it would help if I actually do something about it, but even when I have actually started doing the things I need to do, I still get a helpless feeling.
Homework due this Friday, five finals to sit for next week (3 in the first two days), 2 internship essays and a cover letter to write, and games for end-of-sem dinner to prepare for. I have no idea how to go about prioritizing the things I need to do. And internship essays are deceivingly simple to write, but to actually start writing them is difficult. (besides, I haven't written essays for some time now). All this is making me consider taking the late final for accounting (no clue what is going on in class), but the late final is only held on the first Friday of the spring semester. (Hmm..should I really take the late final?)
Well, not everything has been that bad I guess. MU won today after being a goal down, which totally brightened my day, after I was told I could not reschedule one of my finals and getting back a test which I thought I had screwed up badly and actually ended up doing worse than expected.
I got the TA job for matrix algebra next semester, so I am really happy about that. But that means I have to do 15 hours of extra work on my own too (based on the TA test result I got). Well, I guess it doesn't matter since being a TA is something I have been wanting to do for some time.
I was selected by Barclays for their interview in New York. You know, I find it kind of interesting that the interviews I have gotten are for trading positions next summer. I really really cannot imagine myself being a trader. I mean, a trader is supposed to be someone who is aggressive, gung-ho, decisive (able to make decisions on the spot) and able to work well under pressure, but I don't think any of the above applies to me. Haha. And I am also having second thoughts about which program area I should apply for SEO. Originally, I had put Corporate Finance, but the more I think about it, the more I think Corporate Finance is not very applicable to comp finance people. Maybe Sales & Trading or Research (which are the other 2 areas offered under IB) would be more appropriate.
I watched two movies last Saturday - School of Rock and Love Actually. Both are movies which I have wanted to watch for quite some time, but have not gotten a chance to. And both are pretty darn good! I especially love "Love Actually" and the tagline love is actually all around. But watching the movie made me miss home terribly and made me even more sad that I will not be home for Christmas. (Well, I should probably stop complaining about spending Christmas on the plane).
And yes, I am horribly homesick now and it seems that the more the going gets tough, the more I feel homesick. Which is not good. I can't wait for next Friday to come, when I will be done with all the schoolwork and internship applications!
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want
He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,
He restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
This famous psalm never fails to inspire and comfort me. So it's 9 days to next Friday, and 18 days to going back. I hope I will be able to hang on till then..