Wednesday, January 24, 2007
It has been very tough the past few days and I am really tired, both physically and mentally. Long hours in school, late classes, and by the time I get home, I'm too tired to do any work. It doesn't help that I have not been sleeping well lately. It is really hard to juggle so many things at one time, and I have not really found that discipline yet to be able to handle everything that is thrown at me. Classes have been tough and all the homework is now piling up. I don't want to sound defeated, but it seems that my spirit has taken a beating. I am just feeling very tired, not burned out, just tired (sorry for complaining too much about being tired), and very discouraged.
I guess I did not expect it to be this hard. I always like to think that there is always something positive I can take from anything negative. I definitely have learned a lot and perhaps this is His way of telling me what I should be doing. But you know, it still stinks to have known that you screwed up or that you could have done better but realized that too late, and I guess I am just feeling very disappointed and losing confidence in myself.
I know deep down that God will always provide, but I am fast losing faith. Oh well. Let's just see what happens. In the meantime, I hope I will be able to chin up and take everything in my stride.
posted by vivien at 9:28 PM
