Sunday, February 11, 2007
O level results were released on Friday (very early huh) and my brother got 6 points! Was pleasantly surprised when I found out about it, but I'm very happy for him and the news totally made my day. He's still unsure of which JC he should go to (I don't think he is going to stay on at the current one), but I doubt he'll choose HC ("doesn't appeal to me" - in his words). I asked him, in his heart, where he would like to go to, and he just told me that he wants to go to a place where he can be happy. Such a simple, yet honest answer, and I was left thinking for a while after he answered. Happiness is such a vague term, but I think most of us (or maybe it's just me) tend to overlook that when making decisions and focus on other things instead, things like school name or rankings in the case of choosing schools. Oh well.
It has been quite a week and there are just so many things going on, which have left me feeling very overwhelmed and rather drained, mentally more than physically I guess, since I'm at least still sleeping enough. Another botched-up interview (though I don't think I did that badly), another chance slipped by, and it left me feeling very crushed. What am I going to do in summer if I don't get any internship? This is just so tough.
Schoolwork is getting pretty crazy too. Second week in a row that I started doing a homework the day it was due (and it's not fun at all). Like the previous week, I was feeling totally calm about it and not feeling any sense of urgency at all. I definitely need to change this. Don't really want to spend my Thursday nights getting crazy multitasking and rushing to finish all the work. I guess I need to try another approach to doing things and see if it works out.
Sometimes, knowing too much may not be a good thing at all. And I guess ignorance is bliss. I feel that there are certain things that I am choosing to ignore and not think about, and I'm not sure if I'm doing the right thing.
Cell group this week was rather insightful, but it left me with a question. How much am I willing to let go of the things in my life that I hold on to so dearly now?
posted by vivien at 1:19 AM