I am not sure how to put this into words, but I have come to the realization that I have been wanting to do so many things (not just now, but in future as well) and I think I just have to learn to sacrifice and make decisions based on what is most important to me, my priorities and values, and be contented with what I have chosen and with what I have.
I just realized that there are only about 3 weeks or so to spring break, and it is half a semester left to graduation! Even though I have complained so much about this place, the weather and how boring it is, I am really going to miss living here. As much as I am looking forward to finally being able to live at/close to home, I am really going to miss the slower pace of life here, the quietness of the place, the much more friendly people, chatting away while sipping hot drinks at the corner-of-Craig-Street Starbucks, eating delicious hot crepes, marveling at the whiteness of snow and maybe even trudging through the snow or slipping on ice (real ice of course and not the kind you find in skating rinks!). I am definitely going to look back fondly on my time here. And I guess I have never really said this openly before, but the one thing I dread most about leaving is that I am afraid to lose the friendships I have formed here. Oh well. Graduation and leaving is such a bittersweet occasion.