Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Last time, I wrote that I was still in holiday mood and having back-to-school blues. Well, the adding photos and commenting frenzy on facebook has somewhat died down and I'm more or less back in school mood already. But it's been a different feeling altogether. It somehow feels like things are slowing down, even though in reality there are still the usual tests, homeworks, meetings. My classes are pretty manageable and the only ones that I'm really spending much time on are my two project classes with meetings to go for. I feel much more relaxed/slack and I guess it helps that I'm not stressing out so much over school or my grades. It has definitely taken a while to learn to take things easy and I'm still learning to do that somewhat, but it has certainly given me a much better and more peaceful feeling.
I think I can be too much of a perfectionist sometimes. I get too caught up with making every single little thing perfect and I am aware that my attitude may irritate other people sometimes. Of course it may be good to be detail-oriented, but I shouldn't go overboard. Hopefully, I will be able to change my attitude, chill a little and not be so picky over every single little detail.
Another thing I have realized is that it is very easy for me to judge other people and then criticize them, but I think sometimes I get too carried away and I forget the fact that everyone is not flawless and that I make mistakes too. My point is, I think I need to learn to be more forgiving and accepting of other people. I don't want to leave this place with things left hanging/unresolved or with negative impressions of other people; I hope to be able to remember the positive ones more than the negative ones.
Oh well. Graduation is slowly drawing closer, and it is officially 53 days to graduation. I know I know..I shouldn't keep dwelling on it and be so emo about it, as a friend has put it haha. But with graduation looming, I realize I need to prepare myself to actually leave this place that has been my home for the past 2-3 years. I mean, not that I haven't started doing that already, but it's just that it's becoming more important for me to do so. And with that, there are so many non-school related things that I have to settle. Finish up my tax forms (which are a hassle cos I need to decide whether to keep my bank account), book hotel in NYC, confirm traveling plans for my parents, find people to sell my stuff to, find out about relocation companies here and packing!! (Which I foresee is going to give me a big headache). Haha. I can go on and on but it's not going to make things better. Just trying to take things one at a time, as they come, and not make myself so stressed out about them. As they say, don't sweat the small stuff =)
The weather is so warm today! It puts me in a much brighter mood and I hope this is the first sign that spring is finally here. I just hope it won't suddenly snow or become cold again after today. You would think that after being here for so long, I would have grown accustomed to the unpredictable weather and fluctuating temperatures, but I still complain very much about the weather and think it is crazy. Haha. I guess some things in life never fail to amaze me.
posted by vivien at 5:03 PM